Sorry that this post is coming to you a little late, but I still thought I’d update everyone on the craziness happening over the past couple days. We finished training camp, and I guess I’m still processing over how crazy of a month it was. I grew more in my faith in that time than ever before, learning to focus on the Lord and build my foundation on the Lord’s solid, steadfast love. There are so many stories I long to share and one day I will, but I sit here at a random Starbucks in North Carolina in awe and speechless of how God moved in my life through training. We leave for Cambodia in 15 days and I am READY. Ready to explore, ready to serve, and ready to be the hands of feet of the Father.
I found something written in my notes from the first day of training that I’ve been reflecting on now that it’s over and I’ll share it here:
“today was a rollercoaster of emotions. very high highs, some very low lows, but still a perfect God. i found myself constantly having to remind myself that I am not doing this for me, but for Him. and for that i surrender. surrender my comfort, my control, my old way of life, and i exchange it for the life that God calls me to every day. this is so unlike me, I would never choose to do this. but i am confident in His plan and confident in His mercy. praying for a night of restful sleep as i sleep in a tent for the first night in my life. i love you Lord.” (9/28/22)
Looking back at that, she had NO CLUE what was coming. The first week of training camp alone was filled with a lot of chaos and confusion, a lot of tears, and so many moments of “what in the world am I even doing right now???” And those things honestly haven’t gone away. But it’s in times like those that everything else could be on fire and falling apart and you’re crying and you can’t see and yet the Father is still holding your hand. He never leaves, He never stops loving, and His grace is endless. I don’t expect the race to be any easier than training was, but I’m expectant of growing in His love and in confidence that He is the reason I step into this without fear.
Ministry this first week in North Carolina has been TAXING. I’m thanking God for moments of rest and sweet times with this beautiful community. I’ve been trying to focus on finding God in everything, and I urge you to look around today and note small ways that you see the Lord in your life. Thanks for reading and supporting me, I love you all and He loves you endlessly!!
peace from North Carolina :))
So very thankful of your example of obedience and for showing me how to be brave. I love you and miss you.
I couldn’t be prouder of the awesome things you’re doing!
Training Camp is hard and amazing and exhausting but really helps prepare you for the months to come. I cant wait for you to look back at your early notes in a few months – you will be amazed!!